Life as we know it is not that simple. But why is that i sometimes notice that some people don’t feel that way? When i was in my teens and while studying college, I was never bothered about it. I feel that everything is going smoothly and well. But you can’t always be kids at heart all the time. We have and must grow up so that we won’t be troubled when we reach our late twenty’s and in the future. I envy those people who have great life without trying so hard to be in their position because they happen to belong in a family that has already power and wealth. And those people who learn how hard life is at their early age. I keep on wondering what i did in my early year. All i wanted that time is to be able to enjoy my life and my work but things never become the way i’d imagine it would be because i am in a position where i wanted to elope and vanish forever. But i can’t afford to elope and vanish forever because i have responsibility for myself and my pets. It’s really frustrating when you can’t even pay all your bills on time and can’t even feed give your pets treats or pamper yourself because your too occupied and busy thinking and wondering how can you pay and buy all those things you wanted and need.
We wanted to travel and enjoy our country but even a short vacation to a nearby city is hard. I can’t even pay my bills all the time how much more going to a vacation. It’s stressful most of the time thinking all those financial, personal and spiritual worries all the time. I just dream and wish all the time my life is not like this. It sucks most of the time and i can’t do anything about it but to suck it up. I would keep on dreaming and wishing with a lot of praying that everything would be better soon. And hopefully i can afford even a simple pleasure in life just like other people.